Bloggers Block. Like Writer’s Block But Less Marketable.

I can’t say I have ever turned to a book or site for writer’s block but I know they exist. I imagine the former exist in their droves and have countless visits and impressive daily statistics. As for books I am also certain that on many a shelf there are copies of someone’s advice on what to do when you get stuck. In life there is a lot of money to be made from getting stuck.

What I have been feeling over the last six days has been a kind of writer’s block but not the full blown effect and not enough to have deterred me from my novel (yes, it is still going). Bloggers block is what I feel and it has less to do with having nothing to say and more to do with being unable to generate in myself the need to say it.

I suppose that’s an obvious definition. Having nothing to say isn’t a block necessarily it is to be at a complete loss. There’s a difference.

Writers like to read about writer’s block because, I’m guessing, it provides a sense of comfort that they are not alone: it might even offer up some solutions. In writing this I don’t feel I will be helping anyone nor will I be able to, or want to for that matter, profit from it. So what’s the point in writing it?

I’d like to understand what bloggers blog is and whether I am alone in experiencing it. I don’t know if this is bloggers blog because I have never read about so I could be feeling something else more ambivalent and just have assigned it this name. Perhaps I am no different and am, in my own way, cashing in on the idea of temporary incapability.

What I’m feeling isn’t a shortage of ideas. It feels like something close to indiscipline. Rebellion against my own blog, against my own work.

A couple of weeks ago I worked out a schedule for this site which would enable me to post every day while actually getting out to interact and engage with others. Blogging every day can mean sacrificing a lot of time and I have found that as well as leaving me short on time with others it has also squeezed my novel writing time. Yet I enjoy it and want to post as frequently as I do.

With a schedule in place I should have known what would happen because I am so prone to it in other aspects of my life. When blogging and posting suddenly became easy, I instantly felt dogged by the temptation to chuck it all in or at least to make it far more difficult for myself. You’ll see that I missed some days over the last two weeks even though I had planned out what I’d like to say.

Is it only when things are difficult that I feel attracted to them and feel a compulsion to see them through?

It fits with how I feel about travelling: that arriving in the destination is nothing compared with looking at it online or in photos beforehand. I live things in advance I think and when they arrive and all that is left is to enjoy the work put in to arrive in said destination, I feel let down.

The difficulty is how I know it matters to me. Maybe I am enjoying this state of feeling blocked then? Whether or not I will turn around tomorrow and delete everything I have written remains to be seen. It would be quite like to me to feel as if reaching a place where things have settled into a pattern means that I am not working hard enough and to want to invite more difficulty into my life.

Off into Paris now. I like being able to say that.

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  1. Hi, I know what you mean. I try not to set out what I’m going to do as invariably I will change my mind the moment I’ve said it. But if I don’t say it I often can do it. And things creak under pressure. My advice if you want it, is, forget about blogging every day. What’s the point? I mostly unfollow people who do as I can’t keep up. Although I wouldn’t unfollow you! Prioritise your book and do your blog when inspiration strikes, which it will. Also, you could try getting more personal and see what happens? All the best!

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    1. Thank you 🙂 🙂 I am going to start prioritising my book a little more, even just the hours that I work on it. The last few weeks I had been leaving the middle of the afternoon free for blogging but oftentimes this is when I feel most alert to my own thoughts and in the mood to write. I guess I was only to find these things out through experimentation anyway! I want to keep blogging as often as I have been and I so much appreciate that you have followed along. It means a lot. Really.

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  2. Sometimes blogging crosses into territory that you don’t really have mapped out. For me, it’s a sounding board, but even then, there are days I’m still getting the ideas out of the fog. Don’t be hard on yourself.

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    1. Thanks Liz! Being hard on myself is kind of my area of expertise haha! It is true though that sometimes when I take a break my ideas come from nowhere and I feel more inspired to write rather than how I have felt when everything is planned out. How do you manage your writing schedule?

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    1. Yeah I have read the same advice from experts. I think I tend to work best when I have a very strict schedule otherwise I would do nothing at all so that’s why I have stuck as best as I can to what I feel keeps my day ordered, if you know what I mean. I do understand the idea of the phrase “slave to writing” and I think that in the last number of days in reading back my novel, I have seen evidence of it: some fun or some light heartedness is absent because of the effort of consistency. Does that make sense?!

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      1. Perfect sense. There’s a balance to be struck perhaps – I might strike it at the opposite spectrum to you i.e. having zip discipline 🙂 But being constantly under pressure would, for me anyway, result in forced and somewhat mediocre work.

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  3. Hello hello. I read the title and thought to myself, “She’s talking about me!” I’ve been feeling mentally blocked since December. My sister passed on and it’s been difficult to process a lot of things including my creative side. I’ve been left having to reschedule posts to keep my blog alive. It’s been difficult but I realised that it’s only normal to face setbacks through this blogging journey. Allow yourself to take a break and when you come back you’ll have a clearer mind. Just make sure the break is not too long…

    I hope you get past this, it’s not easy.

    MaKupsy : https://makupsy.wordpress.com/

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    1. I am so sorry to hear about your sister. Such a difficult time for you and my heart goes out to you and your family. You definitely shouldn’t be hard on yourself at this time. I suppose you could remember too – it helps me whenever I am going through something difficult – that there is creativity and beauty too in sadness. Everything should be valued and appreciated. Sending you my thoughts.

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